Thursday, 22 December 2011
Stress is a bittch ♥
So Yeah, Everyone is freaking stressing at the moment due to an obvious reason; Christmas.
My mum is freaking me out, she's so stressed and I feel for her, she's orgininising not just Christmas Eve dinner, Christmas day dinner, pressies but also camping, you see on the 27th we go camping for two weeks ! So she's also trying to get ready for that ♥
But i'm also stressed, The closer we get to 2012 the more I freak out ! My life is going soooo quickly, like yeah I'm looking forward to Christmas but I wish I had more time to grasp the day, because before you know it it's over ! And it's a new year and you're stressing for the next one ! Phewwww, Well i'm looking forward to campig to relax finally, but it sucks cause last year I did some dumbb shiit, so now i've lost my parents trust so now there's gonna be all these rules! Well I'll get what i deserve right ? Karma !! i TOTALLY believen karma, its an explanation for everything, we will get what we deserve !
Haha, well Merry Christmas everyone ! And happy New Year !
Stop stressing & enjoy your holiday ♥
Pics : me & jordie , relaxing and enjoying our summeer !! ♥
Emily ♥
My mum is freaking me out, she's so stressed and I feel for her, she's orgininising not just Christmas Eve dinner, Christmas day dinner, pressies but also camping, you see on the 27th we go camping for two weeks ! So she's also trying to get ready for that ♥
But i'm also stressed, The closer we get to 2012 the more I freak out ! My life is going soooo quickly, like yeah I'm looking forward to Christmas but I wish I had more time to grasp the day, because before you know it it's over ! And it's a new year and you're stressing for the next one ! Phewwww, Well i'm looking forward to campig to relax finally, but it sucks cause last year I did some dumbb shiit, so now i've lost my parents trust so now there's gonna be all these rules! Well I'll get what i deserve right ? Karma !! i TOTALLY believen karma, its an explanation for everything, we will get what we deserve !
Haha, well Merry Christmas everyone ! And happy New Year !
Stop stressing & enjoy your holiday ♥
Pics : me & jordie , relaxing and enjoying our summeer !! ♥
Friday, 16 December 2011
One of those days .... ♥
So i'm as bittchy as ever, tired as hell, feel like i'm hungover (i'm not) and hating everyone & everything at the moment.
I have only just showered and it's two o'clock in the afternoon, I'm sitting here on the computer feeling like i'm going to puke & black out any second now.
I got my camera all wet yesterday and it doesn't work anymore, I lost my expensive necklase. And i'm getting bad feelings now. I don't know what I did that karma has decided to punish me for but i'm sorry.
Give me a break ?
Christmas is next week & I'm scared cause time is going very quickly and I'm nervous for camping because everyone is expecting me to be the same little traamp I was last year.
OH WELL.
Bye now.
I have only just showered and it's two o'clock in the afternoon, I'm sitting here on the computer feeling like i'm going to puke & black out any second now.
I got my camera all wet yesterday and it doesn't work anymore, I lost my expensive necklase. And i'm getting bad feelings now. I don't know what I did that karma has decided to punish me for but i'm sorry.
Give me a break ?
Christmas is next week & I'm scared cause time is going very quickly and I'm nervous for camping because everyone is expecting me to be the same little traamp I was last year.
OH WELL.
Bye now.
Monday, 12 December 2011
Monday, 5 December 2011
Why won't you listen? ♥
So YOU, Go ahead, keep thinking i'm dumb. Wait until I'm successfull and better than you, when I can stand up and say I did this even though you said I couldn't. You said I was dumb, always waiting for me to do something to comment on. I never get one compliment out of you. YOU is not just one person its heaps of people. You think I'm hilarious don't you ? Laugh it up, Yeah, you all think you're so much smarter than me just because I say I want to get a career or music or psychology. Yes they're both two completely different things but I think I would love them both ! Yes I'm FOURTEEN, but atleast I CAN DREAM ! I say I want to be a singer and you tell me to dream REALISTICALLY.
I hear you telling people about my amazing sisters, Hannah, oh Hannah the successful artist who sells her work, and Kate, top in everything, planning to be a doctor, I hear you brag how they're both so smart. Then you slowly mumble a few seconds about how I want to sing.
I'm the one who is slowly going down, I'm the one who has failed at school, isn't doing well in subjects.
MUSIC? I once thought that was a subject?? I'm the one who all the teachers hate because I have a loud mouth and always have an opinion. I'm the one who puts friends first. I'm nothing to be proud of.
Just WAIT. You just wait till I ignore everything you have said and put me down with. I will sing, I may not be the BEST IN THE WORLD but I will one day, I beleiven myself, I write songs, I will do it, And you'll see me smiling and feel guilty.
Guily as HELL.
Why won't anyone take me as I am, I'm this tall, tanned girl, not perfect but nice. I'm loud, opinionated, and proud. I love to sing , swim , talk and help people.
I may be mistaked as selfish, but you see wrong.
Why won't you take me ?
I'm me, I'm somehow proud. But most of the time I hate me, because of you.
Saturday, 3 December 2011
Wednesday, 23 November 2011
Young And Scared ♥
My biggest fear?
To be honest, I'm not completely sure. Because sometimes I think my fears are what keep me going. A few years ago me and my dad were swimming down at the beach in front of my house, as it was high tide, if you walked out a few metres it was about 2 metres deep, and that was where we were swimming. Suddenly my dad pushed me and said "swim" so as I swam I thought we were just catching a wave, but the wave passed so I stopped, but my dad pushed me once again and I instantly knew something must of been up, so I swam into shore. As we reached the shore my dad quickly grabbed my wrist and dragged me onto my feet and ran onto the sand to a group of people staring amazingly at us, my dad didn't need to say anything, I looked into the water to see two 5 Metre long Marco sharks now circling where we were just swimming. It turns out, while we were swimming the group of people were waving to my dad warning us to quickly get out of the water pointing to two sharks swimming quickly towards us. The people all smiled and clapped as we sat next to them, shaking of shock, fear and now relief.
Maybe it was the adrenaline of it all, but something about the experience intreged me, I have a gigantic fear of sharks now, yet I love them, as I have a habbit of attracting sharks when I go swimming, which many of my friends make jokes about not wanting to go swimming with me (:
So that experience wasn't the last, there have been more, not as exciting, but more. But something about the water excites me, pulling me in making me feel like in the water i'm free, and i'm supposed to be there ! And it seems the sharks always know I'm there, You may not believe me but I have the sixth sense, knowing. I know when somethings going to happen, when me and my friend were going to go surfing, I said "I'm not going to bring my surfboard because I won't need it." She gave me a puzzled look but didn't ask, we walked onto the sand, I laughed, seeing a fin and shadow in the wave and a crowd at the shore.
So are sharks my biggest fear? No, a big intreger more likely.
I believen fear, but I think that behind every fear is courage trying to get out and show you something amazing about it.
Monday, 7 November 2011
Who can I trust? ♥
Well, lately some stuff has been going on, so i'm not left with many of them.
In the pictures is me & my "best friend" Jordan, We've been going through a rough patch of our friendship at the moment, but we're trying our best to make it through.
What is a friend? (according to an online dictionary)
1. A person whom one knows, likes, and trusts.
2. A person whom one knows; an acquaintance.
3. A person with whom one is allied in a struggle or cause; a comrade.
4. One who supports, sympathizes with, or patronizes a group, cause, or movement.
I suppose I agree on some levels, Yes a friend is someone you know, trust and like, but to what extreme, is there a certain amount of each you should feel?
I believe that a friend is someone to confide in during times of struggle.
Someone to be with you in the hard moments but never leaving.
A person who you can look next to you and know they're there, stopping you from turning back.But how are we supposed to know who really to trust?
That leads onto another subject, trust. Do you have to completely trust a person to be their friend? Ask yourself, can i trust this person completely ?
Am I using this person to stop myself from being alone?
Am I just trying to fit in?
I don't think anyone can find the perfect friend. But I think you can get close, I think underneath everyone is perfect, but a true friend is the one who uncovers you.
A true friend is someone who makes you know that it is safe for you to be yourself, and will accept you, not just any you, the real you.
Friday, 4 November 2011
Wednesday, 2 November 2011
A Chance To Share What I Want To Say For The First Time ♥
Okay, So maybe the title lied a bit, don't get me wrong I love to talk but I don't actually talk about the stuff I think no one will care about and what I can't handle to share because it hurts too much.
So I heard about blogging where you can write whatever you want and no one really reads it but it's a good way to express yourself, so here it goes.
My name is Emily, in anyone elses blind eyes i'm another teenage girl, going through teenage dramas. But I'm actually a teenage girl with the imagination of a five year old, My mind will mature, I still imagine that when i'm standing in a garden that i'm surrounded by fairies somewhere watching me, or that when i'm swimming i'm a mermaid who can see the ocean ahead of me for miles, knowing I could swim the entire ocean and find my meaning. But these days if I told anyone that i'd probably get laughed at. I love attention of others yet I like to sit by myself at home, listen to music, sketch, sing and write quotes that make me smile.
I sing to distract myself from the world, I love it, it makes it seem like you are the song, you're in it, and life is easy, but then you wake up. So I write my own songs, to keep the dream alive, and real.
I'm the type of person who says what I think, without thinking about what i'm supposed to say, some people hate it, but for some people it's a great talent to have. For me I wish I could stop, yet I gain respect for being who I am, and standing up for what I believe in.
I have issues that no one knows about except the people I know would care enough to help me.
I have talents that only the ones who actually look have found.
I cry, but no one who knows me would think so, because I seem like I don't care.
But no one actually knows me, even the people who think they do. I don't even know myself, yet. I'm waiting, i'm waiting for that say when I smile to myself and think "I am who I am" But i'm not just waiting to find myself, I'm creating myself to who I'm going to be.
So I heard about blogging where you can write whatever you want and no one really reads it but it's a good way to express yourself, so here it goes.
My name is Emily, in anyone elses blind eyes i'm another teenage girl, going through teenage dramas. But I'm actually a teenage girl with the imagination of a five year old, My mind will mature, I still imagine that when i'm standing in a garden that i'm surrounded by fairies somewhere watching me, or that when i'm swimming i'm a mermaid who can see the ocean ahead of me for miles, knowing I could swim the entire ocean and find my meaning. But these days if I told anyone that i'd probably get laughed at. I love attention of others yet I like to sit by myself at home, listen to music, sketch, sing and write quotes that make me smile.
I sing to distract myself from the world, I love it, it makes it seem like you are the song, you're in it, and life is easy, but then you wake up. So I write my own songs, to keep the dream alive, and real.
I'm the type of person who says what I think, without thinking about what i'm supposed to say, some people hate it, but for some people it's a great talent to have. For me I wish I could stop, yet I gain respect for being who I am, and standing up for what I believe in.
I have issues that no one knows about except the people I know would care enough to help me.
I have talents that only the ones who actually look have found.
I cry, but no one who knows me would think so, because I seem like I don't care.
But no one actually knows me, even the people who think they do. I don't even know myself, yet. I'm waiting, i'm waiting for that say when I smile to myself and think "I am who I am" But i'm not just waiting to find myself, I'm creating myself to who I'm going to be.
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